Posts Tagged ‘December’

Letters to them… | part IV

December 30, 2011

Friday, still December 2011 @03:25:11
To: my dearest ex-ex-ex-boyfriend also now ex-friend Diego.

I am sorry things between us did not work out how either of us would have preferred.
I know breaking ties is difficult, at least for me, but there are some differences that over time cannot be worked through, and some choices that cannot be taken back.
I am sorry that I cannot be the kind of friend you were expecting me to become.
I am sorry for the harsh words I sent you last night via IM.
I am truly sorry if I was always a way too practical with you.
And I am sorry for the shortest “goodbye” I’ve ever said…
We’ve tried too hard keep being friends and you should know that I’m glad it worked almost perfectly for many years.
But things are too different now…
It’s pointless to insist. I’m changed, and that is why I’m placing myself out of your life.
I can’t afford certain things and keep chasing people is something I’m determinate to stop doing.
So sorry to start with you though…
Perhaps in the future we might have our paths crossed once again, who knows but now I want you to realise that it’s going to be for the better.
Nevertheless, I’m thankful for everything since the day I met you on the Universaty Lab earlier 2003 but mainly I am thankful for the things you taught me along these years.
You taught me (and it seems finally to be learned) that I should follow my mind and not follow what I simply feel for others.
You taught me that trust is not something to throw around.
You taught me to be reserved.
You taught me that I should not try to forge or save relationships of any kind.
And the most important thing you have taught me was that bottling up emotions is the safest route.
(…)
Well, if you ever come across this letter, I am uncertain that you will but if you do, please accept my apologies.
I hope you live a great life, I hope you fight your demons and find all the happiness you deserve.

Sincerely,
Penguin, the only ex-girlfriend that you’ve had.

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7 years later

December 29, 2011

And it will be forever until the end of yesterday.
Thank you for such wonderful time!

too much to enjoy, so little time…

Twenty secrets I’m willing to share

December 27, 2011

– I’m bisexual, yes I like being with boys and girls equally.
– I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and I’m fine with that.
– I do drugs (sporadically) and my family knows that.
– I lie a lot and I’m pretty damn good at.
– Sometimes I purge/starve myself because the idea of getting fat freaks me out.
– I enjoy good porn.
– I often talk with strangers about everything and nothing.
– I’m fearless, I do EPIC SHIT and I feel proud most of time.
– Make up sex is awesome!
– It usually takes me ages to hate somebody but once it’s done it’s like FOREVER.
– I do shortcuts in life and I normally do not rationalise the consequences.
– I copy others as it please me.
– Sometimes I forget of having shower.
– I’m a bit stingy.
– I’m constantly planning revenge.
– I’m a over thinker and overreact to basically everything.
– I always forget names but not faces.
– I enjoy being in pain, it makes me feel alive.
– I’m addicted to internet and my favourite sport is arguing.
– I don’t believe in God but I accept the existence of Devil.

I’M NOT PERFECT AND IT’S PERFECTLY FINE!

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Letters to him… | part XIV

December 27, 2011

Sunday, December 4, 2011 @17:18:01
To: My dear boyfriend.

I miss you every day. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you at least once. The smallest things remind me of you.
I wish there was something I could do to change this situation we’re now.
I wish you could realize that what we have is something and that it’s still worth fighting for.
I don’t quite know if there is any good in all this shit we’ve been through…
(I hope so)
All I know is that I would do anything in my power to get along with our plans.
I won’t give up on “us”.
But I want you to be happy and I also want you to know that if you ever find yourself missing me, I am here and I always will be.
I honestly don’t know what is happening now, but I will always want you.

Yours,
GG

My heart is yours but from now on I will keep it safe…

Letters to Myself

December 20, 2011

Dear future me,
I will not deny that I’m quite confused about your future…
However I just wanted to say that whatever happens you’ll still have a way of fixing things.
There is always a way! You just need to calm down and see things get sorted out.
I believe in your high potential to make up things once again.
Don’t give up.
I trust you to make us happy!

Sincerely,
the old you

That's the idea, not the ideal.

Letters to him… | part XII

December 19, 2011

Tuesday, November 15, 2011 @19:59:56
To: The Boy I thought would make me believe in love.

I miss the way that we were so crazy about each other.
And I miss the normality that we never had in our long distance relationship.
I know you still love me but there’s something jaded about the way you treat me now. And there’s something in our conversations that keeps us from saying everything that we’d like to.
Being honest I don’t know if it’ll ever get that good again, I thought you only had hurt my pride but again you fucking broke my heart, too.
Nevertheless the only thing I know is that to me there’s no one like you and that I will love you until I can say no more…
I truly believe that we were meant for each other although nowadays it’s sadly clear that the glue we’d just didn’t stick anymore.
Oh boy, I wish I could make everything alright.
Our love used to be so strong that we felt each other’s love even being miles away from each other.
Whatever I wish you knew how much time I spend thinking about you. And how much time and effort I put in my days thinking of things to do to get “us” back together because I still believe that someday, somehow we will be happy together again.
I wish life had a fast-forward button…

I HATE DISTANCE AND WHAT IT DOES TO US.

Forever yours,
GG

#homesick

One day

December 15, 2011

I want you to look back and miss me.
Miss everything that we experienced, everything we’ve been through.
I want to stand out in your mind.
And although I told everyone that we would always be together, I know eventually we won’t.
But as long as I was the one that changed you, I know it will all be worth it.
In the end, everything is perfect.
I want you to look back and miss me.
And one day, you will.

I’m not like anyone you’ve ever known and maybe that scares you a little bit. Because here you are, with me, a girl that actually cares for you, and for once in your life, you don’t know how to deal with that taking this for granted…

#Please

December 13, 2011

just let me take care of your wounds…

this may not be enough but at least I’m trying to

Welcome December!

December 1, 2011

I guess I’m back to my normal so please be good to me.

thanks