Posts Tagged ‘f’

A place without expectation:

May 24, 2013

Sadly, it’s much easier to create a desert than a forest.




N is for nest

March 6, 2012

The more I get to know him, the more I convince myself that he is as unique and special as I am.
We match perfectly to the point to look at shit through each other’s eyes.
He really understands me and accept my reasons in which I do (did) certain things like no one ever will…
He knows me plain and raw, taking me in full from top to bottom and its reciprocal.
I admire him in basically everything he does and his presence light up just not my day but my life.
This is all new to me and I guess I’ve never felt this way…
The connection we have is impressive, so impressive that seems we are inside of each other’s mind all the time! We communicate through the silence, (not to mention the IT & ENG used) yeah it is all so wonderful and so magical and powerful.
I have no words to describe my feelings for him…
And those three little words aren’t good enough to express what we feel.

I know it may sound crazy but this guy and I do believe that “the search” is over. And for this reason, about just a month later, we’ve decided to settle down and in a way I’ve never thought would happen to me any time soon! We are already immensely committed, present and future with him by my side looks so bright and so promising! I feel like on the top of the world and I have no shame to say that I only have reasons to thank God for this blessing. Plus I don’t feel any bad of freely admit that my heart is now totally mended after all and that I am completely ready to embrace with my arms wide open this new relationship.
The truth is that this amazing guy truly wants me as much as I already want him to the point of doing everything to keep me by his side. He’s showing me this in so many different ways, day after day with gestures and kind actions.
We talk openly about everything though what fascinates me most is the fact that we both live for the day and because of it every big step we take feels so damn right like 1+1 = 2!
No regrets are allowed, we have no half measures so it can’t go wrong! I feel like I finally found my little bird and I feel it all just not with my body, I can say that I feel it with my entire soul.
He is all the time in my thoughts. He makes me feel secure and completely free and it’s rare; I don’t feel empty or trapped or blue anymore. With him I can be myself without have to hide my flaws, with him I do not have to worry about a thing because he cares a lot about me, he doesn’t measure efforts to provide me everything I need even regarding my staying on the Schengen area!
This time I am indeed the luckiest girl in the world.
And it’s so beautiful and I so love his gaze and the tone of his voice every time he says “Ciao Carol” or “hey honey, how are you today?”
His smile and the sound of his heart beating next to mine… God, it is one of the best feelings in the world!!!
I fully enjoy his company at any time of my day, from waking up to going to sleep right next to him…

We are more than just great together and that is the reason why I’m so excited about everything!
Spring time is coming soon and YESSS, we are going to build our nest!
A nest where we don’t need to fear the outcome of being ourselves as the way we are.
A nest where we’ll be able to find respect and comfort on each other.
A nest where we can freely play jokes and laugh about silly things.
A nest where communication, trust and honesty are going to be the basis of everything else.
And it’s going to be clean and simple and I pray for it to be far better than ever was because we belong to the same “breed of birds”. I am glad I fell in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time and this is a huge sign that the “meant to be” really exist. Now looking back I fully understand and accept that everything happened for a reason. It’s still kinda odd to think that I moved to Italy sometime in 2008 though just now was that I finally found my Italian guy… Anyways, if I had a chance to change a thing in my past I wouldn’t change anything, because everything that was done brought me somehow towards him.
And everybody knows that I’m not a girl “easy to handle” but this guy is completely able to, he truly inspires me to be the best I can be.
Yes, I have the warmest feelings for him!
FUCK YES I have for him the most sincere 01101100011011110111011001100101 in the universe!

anche io!!!

The sound beyond a song

February 19, 2012

No matter what you go through in your life, there’ s always a song to match perfectly to a situation.
Not seldom a song makes you go back in time and relive in your head those moments over and over again.
It’s amazing how a song can trigger so many things at once… Some brings you back bad experiences waiting to be forgotten, others leaving a blissed smile on your face instead.
I love the song played on the video bellow. I really do, particularly now that it has a special meaning in my life.

And I am not going to deny that since yesterday I’ve this song stuck in my head. It’s stuck right there because it is a lovely song. It’s stuck because to me it was quite impossible to do not instinctively link this song to what I’ve been experimenting with this “wow” guy I am with. It is stuck in my head because this guy has the most beautiful smile I have ever seen!!! It is stuck there because I still have that vivid sensation of melody and lyrics silently filling the space between everything that wasn’t us – and it was indescribably magical in all meanings…
So these days was without a doubt remarkable and important for both of us. It was the longest weekend spent together – the first one of so many others that are to come… I’m so happy to now have a better understanding of the entire situation I am in. I love the way we communicate to each other. Also I’m totally comfortable and satisfied with life in general and so with the rest of the world. Because I know that every time this guy look and smile at me he does that from his heart to the girl I am, not to the one that everyone else sees. Every time he took me by my hands or whenever he say “hey honey” he truly save me from madness perhaps without even fully realise the good he does to me.
Now it’s all far bigger than simply find and being found and I only have reason to thank.

Breaking walls

February 12, 2012

Seems that now she is finally and absolutely ready to start whatever happens!
No more lies or half-stories, no more hide and seek or silly games in her love-life…
She trust him as she fully trust her own self.
And so for this reason she told him things she never told anyone else.
She told him about her fears, insecurities and the very things she was so ashamed of and yet made up who she is.
She revealed to this unique and already so special guy the whole truth as it is and yet his choice, for her astonishment, was to remain; to stick by her side as insanely as it could seems.
So young and so open minded…
Believe me, she couldn’t be happier and in peace with her life as she is. Now she has no walls.
The truth nothing but the truth is all that this guy deserve from her. Because one things is sure, he is far above than anyone else ever did!
So instead of just walk on her surface, she allowed him to go deeper in all meanings.
Awesomely he’s now able to fully take her from what and who she actually is.
He is taking her with her whole crap all in once.
And without any doubt or hesitation he wants her as the same way she wants him:


On a morning like this

February 1, 2012

It’s early morning, the snow falls lightly on the outside.
I know I shouldn’t but I kinda miss you like hell.
Everything inside of me screams for you to show up and sweep me up in your arms, to take me over and love me wildly once again.
It has been four days since the last time I saw you!
I’m over here.
You are over there and I can’t wait to see you tonight.
No one else will understand this, but I pray for you to.
I want the “us” on you and I to be always free.
If I walk away, please follow me.

I like you…