Posts Tagged ‘little bird’

The Leap Second

June 30, 2012

To be apart to be together…
That’s such a terrible task but I can wait as you are the only one worth waiting for.
And the unspoken truth is that I know that you know that I know that what we certainly have is something beyond measures, that only happens once in a life time.
It might be L.O.V.E or either something else yet unexplained and that’s one of the 5.972.432.649,11 reasons why for you, my little bird, I would do anything…
Even if it hurts more than I can take or if it costs me more than I can pay…
Because you are worth it all.

P.S: I’m looking forward to our second first kiss! I’ve missed you a lot.

She had no need to ask why he had come.
She knew as certainly as if he had told her that he was here to be where she was.

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This is my last train…

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please take me home with you.

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Letters to Francesco | part I

April 3, 2012

However cliché it may sound, you are everything I have ever wanted.
You are everything I never thought was possible to find in just one man.
You are charming and kind.
You are determined, polite and impulsive as much as me.
You know when to give in and you recognize when to say “I’m sorry” and it’s beautiful to see that you truly mean every word that you speak.
You are human, then yes, sometimes you fail but you show me every time that at least you tried your best towards me or anything else that you proposed to do.
You have the most lovely Italian accent I’ve ever heard and that makes anything you speak sounds good.
I love the way you say “cazzo” and “pizza” with your tongue between your teeth and I want you to know that I simply melt every time you say “hi honey” or when you look me in the eyes and softly kiss my cheeks before you fiercely kiss my lips.
You changed me for good.
You brought me back to life.
You are and always will be that loving and caring guy that every girl is always dreaming of.
I feel so lucky to have you by my side, dear love of mine!
And all I want is to never disappoint you for the choices you’ve made to be with me. I am going to take you fully and never let you go. I accept you by everything you are as the same way you did this to me without any hesitation.
You are funny and your laugh always make me smile even when the only thing I want is to cry or to punch you in the face for some stupid mistake you’ve made.
Whenever I see you, I feel loved and quite often I feel like a little kid discovering the world for the very first time, because you show me the world I already know in a different way. I’m learning how to see through your eyes and yet I am also teaching you how to seeing things from my perspective and all this is amazingly “wow”. And it’s so pure and fabulous the way we understand one another.
I see on you the necessary dose of madness and strength to make it work and you probably have no idea of how sexy you look and sound every time you say “gia”, “dai, facciamolo!” or “non mollare mai” . I’ve never met someone like you and I couldn’t be happier for have had the chance to.
You are able to dream my dreams and I feel so proud of you!
Its impressive the number of things in which we equally gave up or handled just to be together, I am amazed!
Thank you a lot.
Not a doubt it’s all new to me too.
Not a doubt we will eventually find some bumps in the road.
Not a doubt that I never knew about this kind of love before.
I know that you knows how you already mean to me…
I love you Francesco, I really do, though sometimes I just don’t have enough words to say how big it is!
By now all I can say is that, you like it or not, you are and will always be my little bird from always to forever.

Yours,
Piccina picciò

Mwaaaahh!

N is for nest

March 6, 2012

The more I get to know him, the more I convince myself that he is as unique and special as I am.
We match perfectly to the point to look at shit through each other’s eyes.
He really understands me and accept my reasons in which I do (did) certain things like no one ever will…
He knows me plain and raw, taking me in full from top to bottom and its reciprocal.
I admire him in basically everything he does and his presence light up just not my day but my life.
This is all new to me and I guess I’ve never felt this way…
The connection we have is impressive, so impressive that seems we are inside of each other’s mind all the time! We communicate through the silence, (not to mention the IT & ENG used) yeah it is all so wonderful and so magical and powerful.
Wow!
I have no words to describe my feelings for him…
And those three little words aren’t good enough to express what we feel.

I know it may sound crazy but this guy and I do believe that “the search” is over. And for this reason, about just a month later, we’ve decided to settle down and in a way I’ve never thought would happen to me any time soon! We are already immensely committed, present and future with him by my side looks so bright and so promising! I feel like on the top of the world and I have no shame to say that I only have reasons to thank God for this blessing. Plus I don’t feel any bad of freely admit that my heart is now totally mended after all and that I am completely ready to embrace with my arms wide open this new relationship.
The truth is that this amazing guy truly wants me as much as I already want him to the point of doing everything to keep me by his side. He’s showing me this in so many different ways, day after day with gestures and kind actions.
We talk openly about everything though what fascinates me most is the fact that we both live for the day and because of it every big step we take feels so damn right like 1+1 = 2!
No regrets are allowed, we have no half measures so it can’t go wrong! I feel like I finally found my little bird and I feel it all just not with my body, I can say that I feel it with my entire soul.
He is all the time in my thoughts. He makes me feel secure and completely free and it’s rare; I don’t feel empty or trapped or blue anymore. With him I can be myself without have to hide my flaws, with him I do not have to worry about a thing because he cares a lot about me, he doesn’t measure efforts to provide me everything I need even regarding my staying on the Schengen area!
This time I am indeed the luckiest girl in the world.
And it’s so beautiful and I so love his gaze and the tone of his voice every time he says “Ciao Carol” or “hey honey, how are you today?”
His smile and the sound of his heart beating next to mine… God, it is one of the best feelings in the world!!!
I fully enjoy his company at any time of my day, from waking up to going to sleep right next to him…

We are more than just great together and that is the reason why I’m so excited about everything!
Spring time is coming soon and YESSS, we are going to build our nest!
A nest where we don’t need to fear the outcome of being ourselves as the way we are.
A nest where we’ll be able to find respect and comfort on each other.
A nest where we can freely play jokes and laugh about silly things.
A nest where communication, trust and honesty are going to be the basis of everything else.
And it’s going to be clean and simple and I pray for it to be far better than ever was because we belong to the same “breed of birds”. I am glad I fell in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time and this is a huge sign that the “meant to be” really exist. Now looking back I fully understand and accept that everything happened for a reason. It’s still kinda odd to think that I moved to Italy sometime in 2008 though just now was that I finally found my Italian guy… Anyways, if I had a chance to change a thing in my past I wouldn’t change anything, because everything that was done brought me somehow towards him.
And everybody knows that I’m not a girl “easy to handle” but this guy is completely able to, he truly inspires me to be the best I can be.
Yes, I have the warmest feelings for him!
FUCK YES I have for him the most sincere 01101100011011110111011001100101 in the universe!

anche io!!!

The sound beyond a song

February 19, 2012

No matter what you go through in your life, there’ s always a song to match perfectly to a situation.
Not seldom a song makes you go back in time and relive in your head those moments over and over again.
It’s amazing how a song can trigger so many things at once… Some brings you back bad experiences waiting to be forgotten, others leaving a blissed smile on your face instead.
I love the song played on the video bellow. I really do, particularly now that it has a special meaning in my life.

And I am not going to deny that since yesterday I’ve this song stuck in my head. It’s stuck right there because it is a lovely song. It’s stuck because to me it was quite impossible to do not instinctively link this song to what I’ve been experimenting with this “wow” guy I am with. It is stuck in my head because this guy has the most beautiful smile I have ever seen!!! It is stuck there because I still have that vivid sensation of melody and lyrics silently filling the space between everything that wasn’t us – and it was indescribably magical in all meanings…
So these days was without a doubt remarkable and important for both of us. It was the longest weekend spent together – the first one of so many others that are to come… I’m so happy to now have a better understanding of the entire situation I am in. I love the way we communicate to each other. Also I’m totally comfortable and satisfied with life in general and so with the rest of the world. Because I know that every time this guy look and smile at me he does that from his heart to the girl I am, not to the one that everyone else sees. Every time he took me by my hands or whenever he say “hey honey” he truly save me from madness perhaps without even fully realise the good he does to me.
Now it’s all far bigger than simply find and being found and I only have reason to thank.

On a morning like this

February 1, 2012

It’s early morning, the snow falls lightly on the outside.
I know I shouldn’t but I kinda miss you like hell.
Everything inside of me screams for you to show up and sweep me up in your arms, to take me over and love me wildly once again.
It has been four days since the last time I saw you!
I’m over here.
You are over there and I can’t wait to see you tonight.
No one else will understand this, but I pray for you to.
I want the “us” on you and I to be always free.
If I walk away, please follow me.

I like you…

Bologna